Smoke. Grey.

Sometimes, there is only smoke
Inside me, around me, everywhere
Even everybody is powerless to deny it
Smoke
Grey
Painful but good
Tears won't come out because of it
It hurts inside
But even the universe can't help it out
God, where are you?
Can you help me?
Cause the universe remains silent
Watching all of this smoke covers my sorrow
Are you watching me also?
Are you, all of you, laughing?
Please, this smoke can't stop taking my egos
No one is taking control
They also remain silent
What should I do now?
Ah, perhaps I need to meet silence
Talk to it and ask what's happening
Will it answer this unexplainable thing?
Please, anyone, anything, answer this