Don't get it

Have no words to explain

Have no voice to scream

There's only a dim light

Bring us further

And it's getting cold

I barely can feel my fingers

I hardly can understand

And this smoke makes it colder

I still don't get it

What's happening? 

There are only noises from the silence

What should I do? 

What do I need? 

I can't figure it out

Even when I touch my last cigarette

I don't know when

I think it would be happier if I were a kid. Right?
I just looked at my photos and realized that this world won't be nicer. If I had another chance to live, I would try to be a better person. I feel that I'm ....fu*ked up. Always. It's because of me, myself. The one who should be responsible for my life is me. No one else.

29 Agustus 2019 09:56

Kita berhak menyayangi siapapun
Tapi tidak boleh kita menuntutnya balik
Hakmu bukan berarti tanggung jawabnya
Sayangi tanpa pamrih, apapun itu bentuknya
Bahkan cintailah tanpa mengharap kembali dicintiai
Kuatkan hati
Agar ketika mencintai
tidak akan menyakitkan jika dia tidak mampu melakukan hal yang sama
Kamu bisa dan boleh menyayanginya
sebanyak apapun, sebesar apapun
tapi
jangan menuntut dia menyayangimu sebanyak dan sebesar itu juga
Dia berhak memberi sayangnya yang besar itu ke orang yang dia pilih nantinya
Ingat
Kamu boleh menyayangi atau mencintai
tapi jangan memaksakan kehendak orang lain
Setiap orang punya pilihannya masing-masing
Mungkin kamu memilih dia
Tapi belum tentu kamu yang dia pilih
Ya
Kita berhak menyayangi siapapun
Begitulah salah satu cara semesta bekerja

Life

Life is...
Too short to forgive our own mistakes
Too short to realize how beautiful we are
Too short to accept what we deserve
And too short to complain what we can't get
But...
It's more than enough to be grateful for every lesson, love, attention, touch , hug, and kiss from you
I don't know how long my life is 
But for sure, I start accepting the death-my biggest fear.
I know, as I always say "It's okay".

Short Talk

It was only a brief talk.
Short but deep.
It was about a simple hope of a loving woman.
But somehow it's a pain for a love-chaser.
Simple and sincere.
A dream of an almost-desperate woman.
But it's a kind of burden for a love-seeker.
A marriage.

Rain? Pain?

They say that it's fun playing in the rain

Why?

Cause when we're happy, it will add some pleasant vibes

and when we're sad, somehow it can erase the unhappiness bit by bit

I say...

We just can't deny the rain

When we're happy or sad,

If it should be rain, there will be rain

They say it is pathetic to keep the pain

Why?

Cause we can't feel what we call as happiness

and even we forget how bad sadness is

I say

Pain is rain

We just can't deny it

Happiness and sadness will often come at the same time 

No matter how hard it is,

If it should be a pain, there will be a pain

Our Morning Conversation

I begged for attention and love
But I shouldn't have expected anything
I cried for forgiveness
I should have forgiven myself first
Time flies
So fast
Leaving abundant wounds to be cured
But where the love is?
Where the home is?
............
No!
You shouldn't have stopped
Walk
Continue your journey
Leave them, all of them
Run
Don't let those people recognize you
It's your time to live your own life
It's your time to leave all burdens
Just walk
For sure, they'll try to find you
But make sure, they won't find you
Be a stranger
Be a new human being
Be you
Don't look back
Don't take steps back
It's your life
.........
Yes. He is right
It's your life
They'll need you
So bad
But do they understand that sometimes you need them?
Just go
It's okay
........
Okay. I'll go
But not now
Soon
I'll leave them
Thank you